Find Him - Lose All Else

  
   By going to a certain building, on a particular day & time, performing prescribed, approved rituals, doing the motions, reciting the mantras, pledging & rededicating beliefs through declarations, reaffirming trust via invocations, confessing to & admitting one is a spiritually failed deficient human; then throwing and completely surrendering the fate of oneself, to an Authority mandated by those claiming to be acting on the behest, on behalf of the Creator, many  are CONVINCED  & BELIEVE they have found the ONE true Maker called god! And firmly convinced what they are doing is what the ONE true god wants them to do.

   Rather than skim surface frivolities & basing one's understanding of the ONE true god on pronouncements, edicts, doctrines, espoused & propagated by so called guides, gurus and shepherds, who though are supposedly hand-picked by the divine, & are supposedly 'imbued' with intimate knowledge & understanding of the ONE true god which no living person could actually have; - one, if wanting to reach greater heights of spiritual clarity & exhilaration, need to go real deep into spiritual waters; uncharted, unguided, & delve deep into parts of the realm that supposedly holds the vast understanding called Truth - called God. 

In the quest for an eternal Creator, as yet never 'seen' other than through non human senses, or spiritual blind faith, the attempt to intimately reach the Maker/Originator/Creator/God/Yahweh/Allah etc is fraught with loneliness, assuredly very unfulfilling & troubling.

Loneliness - no one is willing or able in any sense of the word, to share in that soul draining search. Besides most of one's contemporaries AND family would perform emergency evacuation, perhaps not physically, but surely distance themselves from your proximity!

Unfulfilling - as the answers or 'success'  if any, if ever achieved or arrived at, has no confirmatory finality. Even the seeker would not be sure of having 'arrived at destination'

Troubling - there are almost no reference, no unabridged versions of any authority or guide. 
    

   One easily could visualize the desperate loneliness, complete isolate-ness of those pre-religion philosopher-thinker-spiritualist 'giants' - attempting to re-establish the ethereal pathways, the pre-Adamic links long severed & erased, long lost to us. In the deep darkest hour of desert desolation, they stubbornly attempt to reach the Divine through intense soul seeking, diving deep into the primordial depths, the roots of pre-born consciousness, attempting to touch that link & re-establish to Him. 

Picture the weirdness other (normal) beings viewed these 'mystics', & apprehensively take a step (more like 3) away from them, while they seemingly enter into that state of transcendent unquiet in their un-fulfilling, unsatisfying, often self exiling act to grasp an 'XYZ' not even they knew was 'WHAT'.  

 Yet to be human is more than willful pleasures, blind beliefs & unquestioning allegiance to Man-mandated star, super successful personas. 

 The seekers,  scattered throughout god's interaction  with us, gave inklings but never solid bankable "reality" of the ONE. 

   

   In seeking in the vast Unknown for Him - for God,  if one ever even find any inkling of understanding or nano bit of 'clarity' of Him, one might still be as lost, still be as un-clear, still as un-informed!

 Being completely unequipped, un-prepared as in not possessing the abilities, qualities of extra-human senses to assimilate what one might find regarding the reality, clarity or even a firmer inkling of His Nature might prove the futility & unrewarding nature of one's preoccupation/obsession/search. 

Which is why the understanding of such knowledge is better summed up with 'blindness' - an unwavering confidence in an INFALLIBLE which nothing ever devised or stumbled upon by humans can authenticate.

   Thus is it worth sacrificing normalcy, the comforts of everyday living & social acceptance, to go off on a turbulent quest where one surely would be regarded persona non grata by one's circle of 'failed ' fellow 'faithfuls'?

 A Leper, not ringing a bell, or shouting 'unclean, unclean' would still be regarded in every other sense  -  a leper!

Dare one thus make that choice? 

To attempt pondering on, seeking that elusive, perhaps unfathomable-even-if- found Entity?

Dare one forego earthly, familial, communal, social comforts for a non profitable venture, doomed to bring nothing…except maybe an un-tenable promise of 'almost-but-not-quite-there-yet' near Enlightenment?

Life's tempting promises of comforts plus its brevity make that choice unlikely for many.